Belly Pics

OK so I know its not the baby... but I definitely am getting a "bloat"belly. Check em out!

4 Weeks 1 Day

7Weeks 4 Days

U/S Yesterday

It went great!! The doc and chad saw a faint h/b, of course I saw nothing. She said everything look great, Im going back in two weeks and then again two weeks after that, so I get two more u/s in the next 4 weeks!! Wohoo!! I love getting lots of u/s! Well, here he is... Spot!!

BIG relief!!!

OK so another thing I was worried about with changing jobs was insurance. I won't be elegible for insurance at my new job until 7/1. So I e-mailed the HR lady today and she sent me info on Cobra. I was afraid of how much it would cost... well its only $250... I currently pay $120. BUT the cool thing is, I have 60 days from 5/31 (my last day of coverage) to decide if I want it or not. And, if I decide I want it, it is retroactive to 6/1, and will cover and elegible claims acquired during that period. So pretty much... I can NOT pay for it now, then if something happens, I can go back and pay for it and it will cover anything that happened. Pretty cool eh?

What else is cool is that since I have already paid for this month's insurance, my coverage doesn't end until 5/31. This means I probably won't even have a d/a the month that I dont have insurance. I am 8 weeks on 5/24, which is right around when I would have my first OB appointment - still covered - then I will be 12 weeks on 06/21... so if I can just put that appointment off for 1.5 weeks... I should be all set. But if not it should be OK for me to have to pay for one appointment out of pocket. And again, if something happens, I can always retro my insurance. Not that it really matters, cause I have a high deductible plan that doesn't pay for anything until the deductible is met, so everything is pratically out of pocket anyways!

I am just so relieved that this is going to work out. WOHOO!!!!

Freaking Out...

OK , so the thought of starting a new job... who does not know I am pregnant... while having m/s is freaking me out!! I will be 7w2d when I start.... right in the middle of the worst time! I am planning on telling about 4 weeks after I start (2nd tri probably) but my actualy supervisor is going to be the one training me. So I think she will get a little suspicious if I am wearing sea bands and drinking ginger ale all the time!!! I have no idea how she will react, my manager already knows that we were trying, so I am not worried about him, but I AM worried about my supervisor, because she had no idea. They can't fire me right? Like if I tell her in the first week or two, she can't fire me? I just want to PROVE myself before telling, that way they can see that I AM a really hard worker. But I don't know if I will be able to hide it. I pray that m/s doesn't hit me too hard so that I can hide it.

I am feeling pretty good so far, nothing too bad really, but I know at 6 weeks is when it really hits. Ill be 6 weeks on Saturday... I guess next week will probably give me a pretty good indication of how things will be!! Only 6 more days here!! WOHOO!!

Hot Damn!!

Well I went on the second interview for the A/P position this morning... they offered me the job right there on the spot! Wohoo!! I am getting a $4/hr raise! Thats so awesome... and they have pretty good benefits as well and they give out bonuses!! I have to go in for a drug test and physical on Monday morning, so that sucks, but totally worth it. So much is changing so fast and it is so exciting!

I never updated my blog but my 16DPO beta came back at 633!! Its a really strong number so I am really happy with it. Now I can't wait for my u/s on 5/12!

D/A Update

Well it was the longest and most stressful doctor's appointment I have ever had. They took some blood and made me pee in a cup. I scheduled and u/s for May 12th, at which time they will check my lining and the cyst and hopefully we will be able to see a heartbeat.

I was given progesterone supplements that I get to stick up my hoo-ha. They are "natural" supplements rather than synthetic and I have to get them from a special pharmacy... they are idiots at this pharmacy. I get to do it 2x a day... OH JOY! I haven't had any side effects from them yet.... thank goodness... and Im still not really feeling pregnant... just some cramps in my back.

I AM rather moody though....

I feel like I rained on everyone's parade by getting pregnant. All the ladies I have been close to are now saddened because they have not had a BFP. I feel for them , I really do, I remember what it was like when someone ~else~ got a BFP.... I just hate being THAT person. Don't get me wrong, I am estatic to be pregnant, I just wish everyone else could be pregnant too... blah.

I keep Checking

So today is the day my period was supposed to come... I keep going to the bathroom and checking just knowing she is going to show up and this was all just a dream. Im tempted to go get another brand of test thinking the FRER were just defective.. lol. Bloating is gone for the day.... but backache is making an appearance... the kind of backache I get when Im about to start my period :/